There have been a lot of little moments lately that make me a little teary eyed. It's hard to believe my baby is going to be 2 in less than a month! Where has the time gone, he's growing up too fast! I didn't think I'd be so emotional but it's becoming very bittersweet to realize that very shortly I'm going to have to share my time with Noah. That I won't be able to give him all of the attention that he needs. Don't get me wrong I'm very excited about welcoming a new baby into the family but I'm going to miss my time with Noah. I know the baby will take a lot of my time especially with nursing. And to be honest that makes me sad. I'm so thankful for the 2 years that I've been able to stay home with him, to really spend time with him watching him grow into the little toddler that he is. Noah is my world!
Just tonight, I was watching a movie and he was playing with his toys over by the stairs. He was completely fine playing by himself but came over to me, climbed up in my lap and wanted to nurse. So I let him of course and he just stared at me with those big brown eyes. In that moment he needed me, he needed me to comfort him. Breastfeeding a toddler is so much more than just providing nutrients, it's a bond that is like no other. I was reminded why I worked so hard to breastfeed. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
Tonight while I was putting him to bed, he nursed and then pulled my neck in real close and touched my nose to his. These are the moments that make attachment parenting worth every minute. It's what makes bedsharing worth it. In the morning lately, Noah has needed at least 30 mins of cuddle time/nursing time to get him up. It's so freaking adorable! I'll say to him after a few mins, "you ready to go down stairs?" He'll say to me "no" and give me a huge smile and hug me. Love it! Some think that attachment parenting is crazy but I'm really just doing what comes completely natural to me. So if that makes me crazy, so be it. I've got the research to fully back me up on my decisions. :p
These are the moments that I want to bottle up and save forever because there is no greater joy than the love of a child.
